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October 31, 2005
Twick or Tweeeeeeeeet!?!
Well, the big day is here at last. The day when countless numbers of children all over the world believe that the ultimate bottom of the evil abyss is reached by wearting a black biner with holes cut in for the arms, and dragging along their mum's newest addis broom. The sad thing is that my folks are currently hiding in the back room of the house with the lights off, and the curtains closed and all doors be-twixt them and the front door firmly closed shut.
So, yeah, we really get into the spirit of Trick or Tweeeeeeet night in our house.
Actually they are far more concerned about the night thats coming up in a few days time. November the 4th. Mischief Night.
For those of you who arent from the UK - and I think its specifically a grim north tradition - Mischief Night is when the local kids go out and cause mischief. Generally it was meant to be the "trick" part of halloween, but without the victims being bale to opt out with a treat. You'd just find somewhere and be michievious.
And, when I was a kid, it was just mischief. Sprinkle a car windscreen with flour or something pointless like that. What ever we did it never caused permanent damage, and it was ALWAYS easy to clean off.
Nowadays though its a totally different kettle of kippers. Mischief night is just an excuse for the local yobs to go out and throw fireworks through peoples letterboxes, or throw stones at car windows as they drive past, and other potentially life threatening and reidiculously stupid events.
Once that is over, we have Bonfire Night. A celebration of the failure of a bloke called Guy Fawkes and his 12 co-conspirators attempt to blow up the houses of parliament in London, during the mid 1600s. As I saw, he failed. Commonfolklore has you believe he was then burned at the stake, and so effigies of Guy Fawkes are now burnt on bonfires around the country on the night of Nov 5th, and fireworks let off to resemble the explosion in Parliament if it had been successfull.
As it happens, Guy Fawkes wasnt executed at the stake. Not many folks know this, but its true, history buffs will tell you so - he was going to be hung. But he actually died from a broken neck as he jumped off the gallows trying to escape, and not by hanging itself. So where the fire comes into it I do not know, but anyways, its normally a night that is enjoyable if you go to an organised fire and fireworks show put on by th elocak authority or something. It gets hairy when people have bonfires in their back garden and let fireworks off themselves, and dont follow the safety guidelines.
A couple of years ago the neighbours kids next to me, had a 6ft sodding bonfire that was 2" off our fence all the way around. We were panicing the house was gonna go up, anyways as it happened only our fence did. *rolls eyes*
The morons also let off some fireworks and one actually skittered across our wall. At that point, we gave up and phone the cops and firebrigade. And what did they say "ohhh these pesky kids today" - well gee thanks Scooby Doo would be proud of you PC Plod!
Ive had a good think about the website situation and have come up with a compromising solution. It involves a second website, not about ostomys, and hopefully ill be able to work on that in the coming months and announce it when its ready to go online.
Healthwise, its been a rough few days. Ive been struggling with these damn jerks again (my limbs not the neighbours) and last two nights Ive had to log off early and go to bed worried that a fit was on the way. I cant help but feel that its just a matter of time til the next one as the jerks wont cool down much at all. This is my first time on the pc today and I wont be on it for long periods. I want to try and be on it and off it all night though as its the ostomyland halloween spooktacular in the chat room tongiht, so I want to make sure tha that goes smoothly for everyone and that they have a good time. Well, we shall see I guess. :)
Painwise, things have plateau'd a bit. Had a bit of do at the supermarket this morning, but thankfull it settled down.
Depression - its ok I guess. Am far from happy, but getting along Ok I guess.
Lucy - poor Lucy. She went to the vets today, and got her rib checked out again. Thankfully its absolutely fine, needs nothing doing to it, and so we're all happy. But of course shes got a face like half a pound of wet dripping at the moment with the shock of it all...
Speaking of lucy, shes just this minute ruined the folks plan to hide away halloween. The door bell went off twice in a minute and its set her off ballistic. All of the city now knows they are in the house hiding. Mu-wa-ha-ha-ha-ha!!!
And with that, Im gonna go.
J
Pain: 4/10
Depression: 4/10
Jerks: 5/10
Posted by Jason at 06:28 PM | Comments (0)
October 27, 2005
Disillusionment.
These last few weeks that Ive been online have been quite hard on me physically. Ive struggled to physically sit down at the computer what with the infection on top of the pain and everything, and last night I had a bad bout of leb twitches aka the jerks. In other words I am on the computer too long again, and need to cut back for Ill have another seizure.
I am so disappointed by it all. I hoped I could manage it. Ive not been on the pc itself anywhere near as much as I was a year ago, but even this reduced amount of time is seeming to be too much.
On top of this I am just getting totally disillusionment by the whole ostomy site. For example. Halloween is coming up. I never used to do anything for the halloween night in the chat room, but quite a few years ago ppl were saying that I should make it like a party night. Kind of hard to do on an IRC chat channel, but Ive tried my best for people, got them to use spooky nicknames instead of their regular, talked about spooky things theyve seen or heard of etc, any ghost stories they have etc etc.
This halloween will be the third "annual ostomyland spook-tacular", except now theres talk of some people boycotting it because they dont like to celebrate death, or baby sacrifices etc etc. The spooktacular is NOT about that but noooooo theyve got to keep blabbing on saying its a celebration of death and paganistic rituals, when all it is is someone sat at home in front of their computer talking in a chat room with a name like "frankenstein" telling ghost stories! Christ, you'd think I was webcamming a baby sacrifce or something. I myself do not like halloween, never did. But its not because of religious reasons or anything. I just dont really like it, its kind of a non-event in the UK up until the last few years when its started to get more americanised. However, that doesnt mean I slam the door in the face of trick or treaters, or make them out to be pagonist executioners.
Theres also other things involving other ostomy sites that are causing aggro at the moment, but I will not discuss them here.
All of this combined has made me realise that I am just not enjoying being part of the site anymore. It feels like everything I do is under constant microscopic inspection and being used and abused by other people for their own gain. So, I think the time has come for me to leave the website and online ostomy community totally.
I am not sure how best to go about it yet, so im not going to just rush into it. I could just delete it all and say goodbye. But Id hate to do that. All my work would be for nothing. I could hand it over to one of the existing high level regulars, someone who knows HTML and how the net works inside out and the new developments etc of it so that the site can continue to grow and develop. But I really do feel that it is no longer a job for just one person. If it wasnt for the hard work of the boards moderators and chat room ops, the site would nowhere near be as strong as it is now (which is another reason why I feel I cant just delete it, as it would be an insult to their hard work).
Another option, maybe, is to try and get one of the big ostomy companies to take it over. A ready made community of ostomists from around the world with a pre-existing chain of command and support structure, along with a very healthy hit count, it could certainly complement any existing company website and be an exclusive opportunity for one company to benefit from that. But then, if that happened, Id be breaking one of the sites biggest golden rules that Ive stuck to since I started and that is to keep it all unbias and not chained to one comapanies specific products when it comes to offering help and advice.
I just dont know what to do for the best of everyone, including myself. So, im going to spend the rest of the year thinking about it carefully and see what happens. Maybe in the new year I'll feel different, but I doubt it. Ive been disillusioned by the site for a number of years now, and the last week or so's worth of problems and slapbacks have been the straw thats broken the camels back. All the various ostomy sites all seem to have got the same group of people as admins and moderators now, and while each and everyone of them do a great job, and are the real stars of "the show", it does mean that I feel there is no privacy in my management of the site. I get worried about talking about new features and ideas etcwith people to just sound them out and to make the site even better for people, because I know its going to be discussed with other site owners (not maliciously though), and also I feel like every decision or judgement I take on the board and chat room or users is being analyzed and scrutinised.
Its also slightly frustrating to see the people Ive put my faith in and spent hours training on how to run a board or chat room etc are then recruited by another site, and then another, and another. I feel this is bad for the online ostomy community in the long run. So many sites will split the community, and a moderator having admin so many other boards and so on means they are more stretched in the time they can spend on each individual board. I do no tknow how people manage to admin multiple sites boards as I know I have my hands full coping with just the one - and thats WITH all the help the mods / admins have graciously given me. If I were starting the site over again then I would probably do things differently. Anyways its all too late now for changes to the rules etc.
I think the biggest worry though is for the community as a whole. People only have a finite amount of time online. The growth of the internet is unstoppable at the moment, and there will be an explosion of new sites as more members of the computer generation face an ostomy for their condition. And as more and more sites come along and people add them to their list of favourites etc, eventually each site/community is going to get less traffic/hits and less of the quality responses and support that it deserves. On top of that newbies will be thinking "umm which one is best to post to then? This one? That one? The other one? The white one? The black one? etc". Choice is a good thing. But too much choice in this situation in my view is as bad as no choice.
Its been an uncomfortable night with the pain, and needless to say - as youve probbaly guessed from this post today - the depression has well and truly got its feet back under the table with no intention of leaving in the immediate future.
Im going to get a drink, and have a lay down I think before I throw myself back into the site once again....
.... better make it a stiff drink.
Bye for now,
J.
Pain: 5/10
Depression: 7/10
Posted by Jason at 10:01 AM | Comments (0)
October 25, 2005
I say "neigh, neigh, and thrice! Neigh!"
As regular readers will know, Im a bit of a "World of Warcraft" online game nut. Ive played it since its launch in February, albeit at very staggered sessions due to my epilepsy problems during the first half of the year, but since gettin back online for longer periods Ive been playing it more.
I do love the game to bits, its awesome, but one thing that relly got my goat was how you hve to RUN everywhere, with the exception of the airport style "gryphons posts" that fly you around the world to pre-set points. But they dont always go to the direct place u need so you have to walk there. Or if you have a quest in the middle of the "countryside" you have to run/walk there too. And it takes forever. At one point last week I had to get from Booty Bay to Descolace which are on two seperate islands for a start off and in real time it took nearly 20 minutes to get there! That shows you how big the world is that the game is set.... and they are going to expand it soon! God help me.
Anyways, once you are level 40 or above you get access to a horse, that increases your running speed 60%. Still not as fast the slying gryphons, but still a damn site faster. And I was pig sick of all these level 40 - 60 players runing past me on their old nags, and leaving me flailing behind to run behind them. So, last week i decided that I'd been in the level 30's for too long, and it was time to dig in and grind my way up to Level 40.
Well, yesterday I made it!!!! Yayyyy. But I made myself ill in the process. I spent nearly all afternoon and mid evening on the game to finally complete the level 39 grind, but I got there at the expense of major limb twitches and headaches.
I got my horse though, by buggery! So Im now one of those level 40 - 60 players who royal it over the lesser sub-lvl40 players and laff at the runners and walkers thinking "feeble player, isnt even a level 40 and got a horse! ha!!!"
Turns out my horse is a demon horse though. Cos my character is a Warlock. Its got flames coming off its hooves, and out its eyes and nostrils. eeeek. Lucky i can control it eh? :)
Below are two screenshots. One of the gryphon rides, which I soooo love. And of my little pony, skinny and bony, aka SwanVesta - Ill let u guess why ive called her SwanVesta.
And yes, I know that the character on the horse is a female warlock. Theyre better lookin than the male ones esp when you are running everywhere and staring at their arse for 9 months.
The pic on the left is of the gryphon flights, flying into Stormwind Castle. The picture on the right is of SwanVesta, my little pony skinny and boney, taken in Redridge Mountains Lakeshire town. Note the pumpkins, theres a halloween theme running through all the towns in the game for their "hallow's end" celebrations.
Anyways, enough of the happy stuff. Back to the depression n stuff....
Depression wise things have slightly improved, I dont feel quite as sad as I did 48 hours ago - the acomplishment of getting SwanVesta has certainly helped in raising the spirits temporarily. As mentioned previously the ABs have stopped now. My folks were at the GPs office yesterday, and they went to see the GP about their own problems, but my Dad mentioned how my ABs had ended, the wound was a little better, but not much and the WW problems were still there. He asked "do you think its worth him coming back to get some more ABs to keep them going" and she just shook her head and made a noise like "nehhhhhh" (no).
Bugger. Thats all I can think so say about that at the moment.
Pain wise, things are Ok right now. Although when out shopping this morning I made a muppet myself in the Marks and Spencers coffee shop. Not only for being stupid enough to pay £2 for two cans of own brand diet cola, but by having a pain attack on the way to the table and dropping the tray, breaking the glasses and sending the ice skittering over to the customer toilets. Talk about cutting out the middle man, eh?
The stoma bleeding is just the same, just a slight dribble so its more annoying than being anything to worry about. It affects the seal on my flanges which is the worst part about it really. Although if it continues or increases, then the anaemia risk comes back agian. *sigh*
Am trying to get my mam interested in computers at the moment. I think she might be gettin the bug, as she spent about an hour on my Dads PC at the weekened with him helping her to use the mouse and so on, and tonight she came to ask me if i had any intereactive training cd-roms for the computer that she could use, or some learn to use computers books. Sadly I dont, not for Win XP anyways, so shell have to buy one from staples or something.
Speaking of computers, Im sure you know I dabble at being a webmaster. Well, one of the sites I have done for someone has been ripped off, and totally copied over to another site! I got the email a while ago and have fogtotten about it until today, but its a complete copy of my emmascott.co.uk site (and the old colostomy website design that I used to have, as the old ostomy design was a spin off from the ES site.) I wont publically give out the URL of the site thats ripped it off (might in a PM though. :P) as im not giving it the hit traffic, but its been sooo badlly ripped off. Its been about a week since I saw it now, so maybe theyve changed it over to another design from somewhere else since then, as I know ES wasnt too pleased that this guy had done it, and she did know him too which made it worse.
I guess I should be flattered. But more than anything, Im annoyed for her. It looks bad you see as some people will wonder which site came first. Grrrrrrr.
Anyways, Im gonna go for now. Need a drink, so will catch you all later.
Bye for now.
J.
Pain: 3/10
Depression: 4/10
Posted by Jason at 07:14 PM | Comments (0)
October 23, 2005
***sigh***
I feel so sad. The depression has gotten really bad again. The pain has been the worst its ever been post-holiday. The anti-biotics are finished, and Ive still got all the problems. So it looks like it was damage. I feel so sad. I cant even bring myself to write anymore about it.
J.
Posted by Jason at 11:40 AM | Comments (4)
October 19, 2005
Whoops
My bad. Ive totally forgotten about this lately, ive been feeling really blasted from the anti biotics and so I've been sleeping a lot earlier than usual, and well, this journal has, um... sorta been forgotten about. Whoops. :)
The anti-biotics have helped the wound a little bit, its a bit more comfortable to sit on, but its not in any way helped the waterworks, and there is still a lot of stinky muck coming out of it. Im well over halfway thru the week course now and Im pretty sure Im going to have to go back and get some more I think.
Its my folks wedding anniversary tomorrow. Got them some flowers yesterday for it - I know its a few days early but sometimes they go out on wednesday and thursdays mornings so I got them for the day I knew theyd be home. Scored major brownie points with that one. :)
Have been trying to play World of Warcraft the again the last two days, to get back into the stride of levelling up and stuff, but its been soooooo laggy. Latency times of over 2000ms at times, which means it can take about 15seconds from you hitting the spell key to it actually starting up the animation for it on screen and actually causing damage. meanwhile im still gettin thumped in real time on the server end that controls the mobs. Grr. Tis a tad annoying I can tell you.
The depression is back again. Have got a slight problem to iron out on the message board and site from a person who is causing people to get upset and stuff. I know its a penalty of the sites success, that more and more people will come who can find fault with things etc, but it still doesnt make it any easier to deal with it when it happens.
The actual nerve pain itself has had its moments this last few days too and its been quite bad at times.
There was a feature on th elocal news tonight that a guy from this region put up a leaking single man tent for sale on ebay that cost him about £14 to buy. It sold for over £300 and had over 50,000 hits. Now, the sceptic in me says this is a con. Apparently it wasnt mis-sold so maybe someone he knows has been shillbidding on ebay to get the price up, hes taken it to the news media outlets, and their advertising has caused the hits to shoot up out of all proportion. Of course it could be legit too, in which case someone has waaaaaaaay too much money in their bank account... or did have.
Am off now. Am gettin tired, dont think ill be long out of bed tonight.
Bye for now,
J.
Pain: 4/10
Depression: 5/10
Posted by Jason at 08:12 PM | Comments (1)
October 14, 2005
Had a phone call today......
.... and no, my premium bonds numbers havent come up, it was from the GPs office, summonsing me for a meeting with the GP. Thrill-o-rama. As it turns out the swabs results are in (didnt she say to wait a WEEK???? Its only like 4 days!!!) and the results show that the wound is indeed infected. So, im on antibiotics again for a week. Metronidazole, 500mg, 1 x 3 times a day, for a week. A week isnt long enough in my opinion, should be at least a month, but we'll see, I can always go back if needs be.
All I have to do now is hope and pray that I can pee again after the ABs have done their job. If I cant, then im gonna be mighty upset.
Oh yeah, the infection... its not MRSA either. Although she did say its an infection that you normally associate with the early post-op period, and not from nearly 5 years on. So, god knows how long Ive had this infection, but Ive been fighting to get the wound sorted out for at least 2 years now, so maybe its even that long! Heaven forbid it should be from the day of the op itself, as that would be just plain crazy!
West Wing season 6 starts on "more4" tongiht. We're only a year behind so could be worse. Ive started to download season 7, but ive still yet to watch season 5! So, its not gonna make much sense when I sit down to watch it tomorrow morning!
I havent got much else to say, im not really in a talkative mood today. And besides nothing much has happened worth talking about up until I went to the doctors.
So, I shall be off. Bye for now, everyone.
J.
Pain: 4/10
Depression: 5/10
Posted by Jason at 06:45 PM | Comments (1)
October 12, 2005
Tired today
Im tired tonight. Didnt sleep much last night, and although I havent done much at all today I feel even more knackered than I did when I got up this morning.
I didnt sleep much because my mind wouldnt stop thinking about this damn infection problem. By the end of the night I had myself all but in a panic that it was going to eat away enough nerves to cost me my sexual function and lose the use of my legs, or the feeling in them. Im such a happy chappy arent I. *sigh*
Havent worried about that too much today though. Ive purposely tried to keep it all at the back of my mind. Instead I spent some more time faffing about with the new message board system tests to see how Its going. Its certainly gettin better, and lookin like a very real option for the future.
Speaking of the site, it broke that magical 2million mark last evening, around 10.45pm. I didnt see it sadly. And no screenshot has been sent in, so looks like it was missed by all. Not to worry, the 3million will soon be here.
Poor old Lucy has a slight problem with her paw at the moment. She keeps knawing at it, and we've looked at it but all we can see is a minor little spot between her toes. We've cut the fur back from it and stuck some disinfectant spray on it which does seem to have cooled her knawing down a little but shes still not a happy camper when it comes to that paw.
Anyways, she'll be off to the vets again soon for her ribcage checkup so if its still bothering her then in about a weeks time then we can get the vet to check it for us too.
Was meant to help put up a MFI wardrobe today, but it didnt happen. Just didnt feel well enough to help, the pain has been bad, especially the damn wound. I had some help cleaning it today. Its so embarrassing having one of your parents help you to clean your butt crack wound but sadly needs must....... Christ, that seepage stuff stinks to high heaven, yet it doesnt look like regular puss. There is blood in it, but apart from that its clear!!! Weird. Very, very weird!
Hmm just had a phone call saying Id won a holiday to florida. I only had to pay $3000US in airport taxes and insurance. bargain eh? Im soooooo lucky. Do they really think ppl are that stupid to believe this stuff? I guess so. Its just worrying that they try it on me lol.
Anyways Im going to go. Butt is hurting, mood is low, eyes are heavy, so I think an early night is called for.
Bye for now everyone.
Jason.
Pain: 5/10
Depression: 6/10
Posted by Jason at 08:10 PM | Comments (0)
October 11, 2005
Been to see my GP......
And, yup, it was about the waterworks problem. The urine test was totally all clear. So no kidney problems, no crystals, no UTIs and so on.
She doesnt think its stress, and thinks that it is either dormant MRSA returning for round two or another infection has started to attack the cavity, and has either disturbed or eaten away at the nerves doing perm damage. She thinks this for the same reasons I do (although I thought I was being paranoid about it being that so never mentioned it to her, she came up with this on her own) mainly that the pain soared and at the same time frame the problems started, the pain has again retracted to lower levels and i was not as stressed (when I saw her) yet the problems are still there.
She wanted me to take a swab home and swab the wound myself, I think my face mustve said "how the frick do you expect me to do that???" as she said "...or I could do it now for you?"
So she took the swab, drove it in n up n wiggled it around a bit and bollocks did it hurt. She said the wound looks really inflamed and very angry, and unlike the last swab where she struggled to get a sample, this time she got it first attempt.
Now, I wait. And pray. I pray and hope that its an infection, an infection that doesnt have the name MRSA, and one that can respond to anit-biotics, then I pray again to hope that once the anti-b's have been and gone that the water works problems return to normal and thus show that it was just disturbed nerves and not damaged nerves.
Yeah, I think ive got a "fat chance" of being that lucky too.
So, any happy mood has gone out the window and Im feeling really low again. If the MRSA is back then its gonna be a long painful fight and I have to wonder how much more damage its going to do. Pain levels could leap, I could lose total continence, and I could lose sexual function, and while Im not exactly a rabbit when it comes to the amount of times I have sex (can barely remember the last time *sobs*) I would still like the tackle to be there n ready for when I do get around to it again.
Basically, im really starting to feel like Im hexxed.
I didnt get to make a post yesterday as I got a massive headache in the late afternoon so spent it laying on the bed in the dark. My legs had been twitching a lot too just an hour or so before so I was also trying to avoid screens and things to make sure a fit didnt come on.
Thats it for todays entry, the day has been dominated by the GPs meeting, and discussion of that meeting at home afterwards meant I didnt get anything else done today. Hopefully tomorrow I can work on the new journal feature of the website. Hopefully.
Bye for now everyone,
J.
Pain: 4/10
Depression: 6/10
Posted by Jason at 06:16 PM | Comments (2)
October 09, 2005
Invision Power Board Skins and gaming
Im thinking of revamping the message board community on the ostomy website, and have been lookin at the invision power board - its very expensive with its yearly fees etc but it does seem a fantastic board and Im pretty settled that if I relaunch the board community that that is the system I will use to power it. However, I suck at skinning, and I want the board to match the colour scheme of the main site. Does anyone out there reading this make skins, esp skins for IPB 2.1? I'd be willing to pay for the skins creation. If you can help please mail me coolthud@gmail.com and lets talk. :)
Signed onto Xbox live today for the first time since gettin home and I played Far Cry Instincts today, and that game blows me away. The graphics are truly awesome, its like the next generation of games consoles has already arrived, so if they can pull of graphics like this on the current xbox then I cant wait to see what they can do with the new Xbox 360 when its launched on Dec 2nd - and yes my order for one is in place and confirmed.. whoooopie!!!!!
Well, Im gonna go. This is a short post today so no extended entry for y'all to read im afraid. :P
Bye for now,
J.
Pain: 3/10
Depression: 3/10
Posted by Jason at 01:24 PM | Comments (0)
October 08, 2005
Back again
Has it really been a week already? Wow, where does the time go to???? The week has been very nice really, and I cant tell you how badly we all needed to get away from everything here, and although I couldnt leave the pain at home a lot of the stress and worries etc were gone for the duration.
The highlight of the break had to be a visit to Bamburgh Castle, which was just fantastic. It took over 4 hours to go around the WWII museum there, and the main castle history tour itself, and to have a drink in the coffee shop etc. http://www.bamburghcastle.com/
The best thing about it, was that you werent fixed to a tour guide. You could have a guide if you needed one, but we were quite happy to get the guide book and plod through there on our own steam. There was some fantastic armoury materials there, and antiques etc. The WW2 museum was also fantastic, and with spitfire wrecks, turret guns, and such like all there for you to see and touch etc it was a real eye opener as to what it must have been like to be there.
Bamburgh Castle itself has 15 apartments in it available for rent. They have 6 bedrooms each, and come with parking and all the usual trimmings.... fancy living in a castle? Well, if you've got £2000 (Pounds Sterling) ($4000US) per month then you too could live in stately excellence. Bet you have to give a weeks notice before farting when you get there!!!
Second best highlight of the week was gettin to let Lucy off her lead on the golden beach that was there at Seahouses. It went on for miles, lovely golden sandy beach. And whilst it was pretty cool, certainly not paddling weather (esp in the North Sea! lol) it was a great couple of hours there - we went three times in all there so it wasnt a one off experience either. I even managed to get some video footage of Lucy on the beach with the digital camera - I keep forgettin that that thing has the avi function on it! So, expect to see Lucy's First Motion Picture hitting the net soon, along with the pre-requisite holiday snaps - well ive hardly no friends to share them with here, so I may as well bore the pants off you lot with them instead! :)
The pain did rear its head a few times. I ended up spending a couple of afternoons or mornings layin on the bed in agony, but even that really didnt dampen the holiday spirit.
We're not fans of caravan holidays by anymeans but this was a really luxurious caravan compared to the others we've been in, even if the single bed I was in was only 2ft 6inch! lol :D
So, depression wise things are a lot better. They were already improving before we left, but this break has made all the difference. I hope this session continues for a long time, but with a docs appt and a couple hosp appts coming up in in the next couple weeks or so, Im sure it wont be long before frustration rears its ugly head again and my mood plummets down with it.
Anyways, Im pretty tired, so Im gonna go now. I'm sure I'll be back soon.
Bye for now,
J.
Posted by Jason at 04:24 PM | Comments (2)