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November 07, 2005
Another week gone
Wow, has it really been a week since I last filled in an entry for this journal? I guess so! I dont know where the time has gone, it only seems like yesterday since I last entered something into this tome.
Its not as if its been an action packed where where my feet havent touched the ground. In fact if anything its the opposite. Its been a boring week where my feet rarely left the floor! Its been a difficult week healthwise, the pain problems have been sporadically causing me periods of severe discomfort. Also more worrying is the fact that I had some very bad body jerks which meant I ended up spending some evenings laying on the bed trying to keep things at bay.
When I have been on the computer I've been doing some more stuff on the new website Im working on. Ive also set up a gallery for the ostomy sites users to display their photos in themselves instead of waiting for admins to do it for them, and Ive been killing a bit of stuff in World of Warcraft... lvl42 now! And well over halfway to the 110000 xp I need to reach Lvl 43.
The depression has been in swings and roundabouts all week. Sometimes Im feeling bright enough, and then when the pain comes in the depression rolls over me like a storm just waiting to happen. On thursday this week Im meant to be going to see the depression people. It could be a very difficult appt as its the first time i'll have seen them since the major downer of September time when I got low enough to not only consider suicide but to write out a list of pros and cons as to why I should or should not do it. It wont be easy to talk to them about that. Chances are I'll come out more depressed than I go in, but I guess they need to know all this stuff. :/
Anyways, Im going to leave this here for now. LIke I said theres been so little happening around here that I havent got a lot to talk about at the moment. Maybe in the next few days I'll have more to say. You lucky things you(!)
Bye now,
J.
Pain: 4/10
Depression: 4/10
Posted by Jason at November 7, 2005 06:15 PM
Readers Thoughts
Helloooooooo!
Great to chat to you again at the weekend, if only briefly. Buy yourself some face paints and pain a big grin on your face for the week ahead...and carry a mirror with you. Every time you feel down you can look in the mirror and laugh!
xxxx
Posted by: Ali at November 8, 2005 03:10 PM
I am completely new to "blogging". I have no idea how this works and if anyone has any suggestions for how I can start out, it would be greatly appreciated. I have had Chronic Pain for the past 17 or so years. Would like to chat about that.
Posted by: Tina at November 9, 2005 06:25 PM
After a head injury, I sometimes have tiny cramps in all my muscles. I have a orthopedic problem(EDS). I hurt today and I don't know if I overdid or if this is pain that would have come even if I had been lazy in bed. It is discouraging to have to do things a little at a time. And to wake up with the same old problems still unsolved. Suicide is not a solution; your pain is splattered onto your survivors. God has a purpose for you and you battling your life's problems is the only way to gain mental and emotional and spiritual strength. C S Lewis explains much about surviving hardship in a manner that strengthens persons and how to get closer to God. The Book of James (New Testament) says anyone can ask and receive wisdom from God. C S Lewis in the Screwtape Letters talks about the Creator (God) and the creatures (humans) and the mysteries of love and grace and the transforming power given to God's adolpted children. I'm not addressing you from a lofty place; I've felt suicidal and I'm still here; and after survivng an ordeal, one has strength and comfort to offer others. So stay strong, work on your life problems a little, rest some, play some, laugh a little, and get through today or just this hour. Don't try to face it all at once.
Posted by: Eastlyn at November 10, 2005 03:36 AM
Hey Jase,
You haven't updated in a while and I'm wondering if you're ok?? Hope you are and hope to speak to u soon too, take care please (((hugs))) xxxx
Posted by: Ali at November 16, 2005 10:42 AM