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October 11, 2005
Been to see my GP......
And, yup, it was about the waterworks problem. The urine test was totally all clear. So no kidney problems, no crystals, no UTIs and so on.
She doesnt think its stress, and thinks that it is either dormant MRSA returning for round two or another infection has started to attack the cavity, and has either disturbed or eaten away at the nerves doing perm damage. She thinks this for the same reasons I do (although I thought I was being paranoid about it being that so never mentioned it to her, she came up with this on her own) mainly that the pain soared and at the same time frame the problems started, the pain has again retracted to lower levels and i was not as stressed (when I saw her) yet the problems are still there.
She wanted me to take a swab home and swab the wound myself, I think my face mustve said "how the frick do you expect me to do that???" as she said "...or I could do it now for you?"
So she took the swab, drove it in n up n wiggled it around a bit and bollocks did it hurt. She said the wound looks really inflamed and very angry, and unlike the last swab where she struggled to get a sample, this time she got it first attempt.
Now, I wait. And pray. I pray and hope that its an infection, an infection that doesnt have the name MRSA, and one that can respond to anit-biotics, then I pray again to hope that once the anti-b's have been and gone that the water works problems return to normal and thus show that it was just disturbed nerves and not damaged nerves.
Yeah, I think ive got a "fat chance" of being that lucky too.
So, any happy mood has gone out the window and Im feeling really low again. If the MRSA is back then its gonna be a long painful fight and I have to wonder how much more damage its going to do. Pain levels could leap, I could lose total continence, and I could lose sexual function, and while Im not exactly a rabbit when it comes to the amount of times I have sex (can barely remember the last time *sobs*) I would still like the tackle to be there n ready for when I do get around to it again.
Basically, im really starting to feel like Im hexxed.
I didnt get to make a post yesterday as I got a massive headache in the late afternoon so spent it laying on the bed in the dark. My legs had been twitching a lot too just an hour or so before so I was also trying to avoid screens and things to make sure a fit didnt come on.
Thats it for todays entry, the day has been dominated by the GPs meeting, and discussion of that meeting at home afterwards meant I didnt get anything else done today. Hopefully tomorrow I can work on the new journal feature of the website. Hopefully.
Bye for now everyone,
J.
Pain: 4/10
Depression: 6/10
Posted by Jason at October 11, 2005 06:16 PM
Readers Thoughts
Sending you ((((hugs)))) Jase, and keeping my fingers crossed for you that it turns out to be the best scenario.
Will email you soon,
take care, love Ali xx
Posted by: Ali at October 11, 2005 08:36 PM
take care jase sending u hugs love Sarah x
Posted by: Sarah at October 11, 2005 09:11 PM