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September 28, 2005
Forgot to post yesterday....
.....slap my wrists will u please somebody? Thank you.
The pain has been fluctuating over the last 24 hours or so which has been making things hard to focus on things at home etc or on the computer.
Someone asked me todaywhat the pain was like and the only way I could describe it was this... "its like a red hot poker has been shoved up into the rectal cavity and every nerve ending and muscle fibre up there is gripping onto it for grim death as if my life depended on it". Thats the breakthrough pain I experience. It can last for days. The other pain I have is an aching tub thumping type of feeling in the same area that is constant, it never goes away, only the painkillers mask it.
Im going away on Saturday for a week. The folks are going on holiday to northumberland and Im going too because I just dont think Im well enough to stay at home alone if I can avoid it. The journey will probably kill me, but at least if I have problems I have my folks there. If I have them at home im on my todd. Not a very pleasant experience.
So I'll be gone from Oct 1st to Oct 7th inclusive.
Had an afternoon nap today cos I didnt get much sleep during the night with the pain. I didnt intend to have a nap, it just kinda... happened. :) I was feeling fuzzy from the painkillers, so I put the Lost season 1 dvd set on the dvd player and laid on the bed to watch it. Next thing I know its like four hours later. :/
Betya this means I dont sleep much tonight now! Its a viscous circle!
Anyways going to go. Really nothing exciting has happened today and I dont want to keep boring people with me droning on about depression.
So, bye for now people.
J.
Pain: 4/10
Depression: 6/10
Posted by Jason at September 28, 2005 04:48 PM
Readers Thoughts
Hi Jason, enjoy youre holiday, take care. Hugs hilxxxx
Posted by: hilary at September 29, 2005 10:11 PM